Omg!! im soo pissed!!...

hmm...lets start..

firstly u made me love u soooo bloody much!!!...

we quarelled alot..

i agree...

but u broke my heart..

by leaving me when in time i needed u soo much....

i let u go cuz i know u will never be happy with me...

and i know u can find someone better than me...

im sorrie if i hurt u...

but yeah...u still broke my heart...

now its shattered into pieces...

im trying to slowly bits and pieces put it back together..

its hard...

but i'll never give up..

although truth to be told...

i still love u...

however...

today...

i felt hurt again...

can u even say a simple HI back to me ??...

what am i to u now ???

its was ur suggestion that we become frens...

and now ur not even talking to me...

is this wat u mean by frens...

i dont know what ur frens have told u...

i know they love u and care for u....

but try to atleast listen to ur heart for once..

talk to me!!!...

im fine...im overcoming my fears...

so dont think about me wanting to patch up..

cuz it will never happen...

because of u...

i lost half of my life..

i lost my battle...

i lost my appetite..

i lost my courage...

i lost my freedom...

i lost my PEACE !!!....

thanks very much!!..

and for me to overcome what happen on friday...

really took alot of my frens support...

gosh!...

thanks guys...

GOD!!!...

can someone just stab me from the back...

kill me on the spot...

so that i wont feel pain anymore!!!..

ARRGHH!!!...

i love u but i hate u...