I CAN'T LIE TO MYSELF !!!

YES..

I STILL LOVE HIM...

BUT YY??!!!

AFTER WHAT HAVE HAPPEN BETWEEN US...

EVERY SINGLE ONE KEEPS TELLING ME TO FORGET....

BUT I TRUELY CANT..

IM NOT READY !!!...

he may have moved on...

and im glad...

cuz he's happy...

his happiness is my happiness...

i didnt online yesterday night due to training...

i saw his name at the "what's new" section in msn...

and it says that he had 2 days of mc...

and i know that he is sick..

he is not the type who would skip work for no reasons..

im seriously worried..

u may say...

just forget him..

move on...its hard but just do it..

but do u know..

i love him too much....

knowing him being sick already made me cry on the phone...

~thanks marl~

wat more when i saw that girl...

..............

haishh!!....

i wish i could listen to marl...

just msg him as a fren...just to show concern...

however...

what will he think about me...

dont u think so tooo...

i also wish i could listen to the others..

forgive, forget, move on...

however...

my heart is just too heavy to even drag it across...

only god knows how i feel right now...

:'(..