its nearing 3am...
and i cant sleep...

having a MAJOR headache though...

hoping baby's already at angah's place..
but im sure i can doubt about it...
he's somewhere out there still...
hope he remembers he has school tmr..

and he shud know i dont like him to skip or miss classes..
oh well,
actually whats the pt of me saying it...
he wont listen to anything that i say anyway...

god knows y..

but then again,
he's all grown up..
he shud know the difference right...
matured enuf to know how ppl feel...

side track for awhile..
and to say matured enuf...
which boyfriend in the whole entire world wud actually allow his gf to be fingered by another guy infront of his own eyes...
wow!
im actually shocked at that time...
thats wht happen when its uncontrollable...

back to the previous part..

and what position do i have to say all that right...
who am i..
just a normal teenage gerl...
who loves her hubby so much and wants nothing to happen to him..
bt yet it falls onto deaf ears..


right now,
i seriously feel unhelpable...
i cant even make him feel atleast an "okay" after the incident...
instead i made it worst...

hung up on him when he said gdnite and he loves me...
y ?

i dont know actually..
suddenly my mind when blank..
and i was speechless..
well actually there's already tears...
but lets forget about that...
not impt anyway.

i just want him to be home!..
atleast i wont get toooo worried about him..
i know he may look fine..
but inside he's not..


he's with his frens now...
they shud know how to cheer him up...
i'll let him be for tonite.